Change.
Change is magic.
Change is pain. Change is flames
and rising from the ashes. Change is the
process that brings us through transformation and transformation brings us
closer to the divinity that is our true selves.
But with that being said our true selves are not any fixed things, they
are constantly changing and adapting.
To deny ourselves change is to deny yourself the best part
of life, in my opinion. Change is
wonderful but it comes with it's own brand of fear...
The above is the last post I had
written anything for in regards to the challenge I tried to use to kick start
this blog. And how very appropriate it
is because much has changed since 2014 when the above words were written and
when I had last posted in this blog. The
Idea of a blog has always appealed to me but the practice of it has always been
my struggle. I am not a consistent
person, I'm very cyclic and while that gives me great satisfaction in always
having something interesting going on, sometimes it is a serious
shortcoming. So one day at a time.
I have been doing well with keeping
a handwritten journal but that has succeeded because I stopped putting pressure
on myself to write something interesting every day. Who the fuck does that? I mean I'm a normal person, I'm not a character
in a story dealing with monsters of any variety most days. Most days I am content to try and do things I
enjoy more than the things I don't enjoy and I don't think that's a bad way to
live but that doesn't always make for interesting reading.
My idea for the blog is to treat
it kind of like a recap, to talk about my life and whatever is going on in it.
That may be a story (maybe I’m writing, editing, or one day publishing), may be
something awesome I’m knitting or crocheting, may be something going on with
people in my corner of the world, may be about food (because I really love
food), may be just ramblings that I feel like I need to share with the world in
the hopes of them resonating with another human being. But for the most part to not put pressure on
myself to be William fucking Shakespeare every time I write anything. Sometimes I will write total crap and as soon
as I send it out to the internet I will realize it's crap, sometimes I
may not think it crap and the people of the internet will
tell me it's crap and I will end up agreeing, sometimes I may come up with
magic and I won't care if the internet hates it or loves it because it will be
magic. So here's to starting again and
probably again and again.
